Plans & Plans & More Plans

Bad day, horrible day actually and I am tired of bottling it all up. “It’s just your hormones, a rational you would not react this way”, I am tired of telling myself that, so I decided I would rant.

Nah! Just kidding.      

         

“What will you do when the two of you go off to different colleges?”, she asked smirking.

We just smiled. We had decided that we’ll only go to the same place. The joke was on her; or so we thought. She knew better cause she had been handling hormonal bffs for most of her career.

Fast forward 5 months and here we are. I am whiling away my gap year and my bestie is in a college miles and miles away. It seems like a life time ago that we were discussing about how we’ll share our closet in college. As you can see that is not a problem anymore……………

So why do we plan? Why do we try to contain the unpredictable within our predictions? Why not ‘not want things’ rather than ‘not get things’?

We plan because that’s all you can do about it. You prep the best you can for the next moment so you have a contingency plan. It is like performing a controlled experiment in unknown conditions and hoping that your hypothesis is right. And it’s almost always wrong, but it’s better to be wrong than to not know what to do. It’s better to be heartbroken than have nothing to live for. It’s like learning to cycle, the first time you fall off you promise yourself that you will never get on that death machine again. But the shiny two wheeler is too hard to resist. You get the analogy right? Your plans mostly keep failing you, hurting you but you make them any way so that someday you get better at it.

My bestie and I have now planned to be business associates in the future. Who knows if that will work out? However the plan gives us solace and for now, that’s all that matters.

The next and the only thing to do is cross your fingers and wish for the right thing to happen. Your fate no matter where, will lead you to the right place. Or so we pray.

That’s how all of our lives are going to be. Screw the fact that you are perennially putting off that guitar class. The important thing is that you plan to do it. So you’ll never run out of things to do. Cause that would be truly frightening.